lana without limits

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LT | 23 years old | female | filipina | californian | american |

Numbers (in progress): 5'3'' | 193 lbs | Size 14 | BMI: 34.2 |

here's my road
to fitness and health,
to beauty and strength,
to confidence and self-esteem,
to a life without limits

uncovering fear & discovering love

i haven’t shared too much about my love life on this fitblr, but i’ve been thinking a lot lately…

for a very long time, i thought my value was held ONLY in the way that I look and interestingly enough, my love life has consisted mainly of hookups and fuck buddies.

no real depth. no real connection.

the questions i’ve been asking myself a lot lately -

  • what does it mean for the quality of my relationships if i only hold physicality (my own and my partner’s) to be the most important thing?
  • what does it mean for my own self worth and my confidence and comfort with potential partners if i can’t be comfortable with myself? 
  • how can i ask someone to really get to know me if i don’t take the time to get to know myself?
  • why am i so afraid to let someone in?
i think the answer to last question is that i’ve been so afraid that he’ll find me wanting. the same way i’ve been feeling for the last 23 years.

as i get healthier and stronger, both mentally and physically, i’m hopeful this feeling will eventually go away.

— 2 years ago
#body image  #confession  #confidence  #fear  #fitness  #fitspo  #fuck buddies  #health  #heathspo  #inspiration  #just do it  #love  #motivation  #post secret  #relationships  #self-esteem  #strength  #worth  #no strings attached  #friends with benefits 

Featured Workout Song of the Day:

Shot You Down by Audio Bullys feat. Nancy Sinatra

bang bang, i used to shoot you down

— 2 years ago with 11 notes
#workout  #musica  #music  #fitness  #fitspo  #fitblr  #motivation  #inspiration  #audio bullys  #nancy sinatra  #shot you down  #electronica 
confession

When I’m about to do suspension exercises and I get all strapped into the TRX band, sometimes I feel like I’m in a Fifty Shades of Grey novel.

— 2 years ago with 2 notes
#bdsm  #fifty shades of grey  #fitblr  #fitness  #fitspo  #inspiration  #motivation  #postsecret  #suspension  #training  #trx  #weight loss  #selena gomez 
October Update

I haven’t been on here lately, but I thought I’d give you all an update.

After four weeks since my last weigh in, I’ve lost 8.5 pounds and gained a significant amount of muscle.

Friends, this is progress! Thank you for being my source of motivation, inspiration, and support throughout this journey. Here’s to continuing along that path to fitness and healthy living.

Make yourself proud!

— 2 years ago
#fitblr  #fitspo  #fitness  #weight loss  #inspiration  #motivation  #support  #follow  #update  #october  #progress 
September 26

Workout

2 hour tennis match with my brother, tied sets (1-1)

Food Summary

Breakfast: 1 banana, bowl of oatmeal, cup of coffee

Snack: Luna bar 

Lunch: chicken caesar salad with dressing on the side

Dinner: Salmon, brussel sprouts, small baked potato

Comments

I am sore! and tired… didn’t sleep last night until 1:30am. I think it’s making my metabolism slower so I am determined to go to bed at 11pm tonight. Water was a bit hard today but I got a good amount in. Still can’t find my water bottle :/ will need to get a new one tomorrow!

Happy moment: continuing to keep playing tennis because i felt competitive and needed to finish! i love the feeling of mindful determination.

— 2 years ago with 1 note
#daily commitment  #september  #fitspo  #fitness  #fitblr  #food  #training  #tennis  #weight loss  #body image  #motivation  #inspiration  #determination